Jobless

Somehow my manic state has screwed me...yet again.

Though honestly, as much as it would make things easier, I'm not going to sit here and blame this most recent episode for the state of my life right now. It's as much my fault as it is the mental illness. If I didn't go on and off my meds so often...if I had addressed and dealt with the eating disorder a long time ago...puking and starving don't exactly keep things running smoothly, brain chemical speaking, you know.

And despite knowing what happens when I don't take meds and most especially when I'm not eating or sleeping properly, it is still ultimately my responsibility to manage my illness. Easier said than done, for sure, given that I'm in the fight of my life. And the battle is as much with the world as it is with myself.

And as usual...I've gotten way the hell off topic, and I haven't a clue as to the point of posting.