Sitting at our NEW HOUSE waiting on the DirecTV installer. This is so exciting for us. To look at all this and know where we (because of my grief and subsequent relapse) were just 5 years ago, I feel so blessed by Him...so loved by my family. My only regret is that my grief and pain, from my father & grandmothers' suicides (less than 2 MONTHS apart) caused my husband & daughter's their own pain. Katie, 15, Ally, 6, and my husband of nearly 16 years...they are all that keeps me connected to something good and innocent and REAL.