Intervention

Just watching the episode of "Jason" and his cocaine and alcohol addictions.  Pretty powerful stuff.

Also just watched an in-depth look at methamphetamine in "Meth Mountain."  Again.  Very f*cking powerful.  That drug is horrific.  I've been clean for several years now, but meth came very very close several times to destroying my life and my family.  I have a wonderful husband of 16 years, and two beautiful daughters who, despite their youth, are already far more emotionally developed (and healthy) than I.  I got clean for my kids and my husband.  I wish my parents...either of them...had ever been capable of doing the same for me.  That, in itself, is hard to put out of my head.  Especially when it affects everything all the time.  Parenting is very hard for me.  I have nothing healthy to refer to in terms of parenting, and it takes me 3 times as long to figure things out sometimes.

Anyway.  No more talking about this shit right now.  I need to stop watching this show.